Let’s call her Jane for her sake at least. And she could have been named Jane and I would’ve totally been like, ‘yeah, she seems like a Jane.’
Okay, so she seemed really cool at first. I never met her, but I saw her around. She was like, exactly how I had always wanted to look, to act. And all of a sudden, she had him. I was supposed to have him, but suddenly she did. And I didn’t like that one bit.
So what do I do? I walk right up to them and I grab his hands and I kiss him on the cheek, tell him I love him, and walk away. And boy did she hate me right then! Well I apologized later when he told me that she was his girl friend, and how she was really upset, but she just brushed me off. So I really did think she hated me. But now…well, how about I just let you read the conversation we had the other day, how about that?
Me: ok so you probably already hate me, and i guess i cant blame you there, but if i dare to butt into your business, why arent you dating E. anymore? you dont have to tell me of you dont want to, and i can explain what i did if you want cause i never meant to hurt anyone. and yes im being nosey 😦 sorry
Jane: bc i felt like i was being pushed to date him and yeah i liked him but the fact everyone was pushing me made me not want to date him and its okayy i dont like to stay in the past and you dont have to explain if you dont want to. sorry if i sounded rude just then
Me:yes! ha I knew i like you 🙂 I could tell you really liked him, but i didnt know y’all were dating at first, and i guess i was a little jealous at first, with good reason. see, i guess ive kind of let myself become his back up plan for the past year. every times he breaks up he comes crawling back to me. and i let him play me, he tells me that he loves me and i believed him. friday night he asked me if i would kiss him, he had been asking me for awhile (long story short. very short) i jokingly said “wait and see” just to mess with him. but when i saw him with you idk i just did it cause he told me to. but yeah that was making the story as short as i could lol cause ive loved him for a year more or less, but he just keeps leaving me and it drives me crazy
Jane: woo i did not no that im sorry and hes not worth it if he is playing you girl dont let someone play you bc that means that you can do better and i dont like people getting played at all it makes me mad bc ive been played by the first guy i liked and i no how it feels
Me: thanks, and I know, but I’ve been through so much with him and for him, with his family, it’s like i cant just desert him now you know? Idk what to do…but God will show me in time, he always does
Well, we talked for a bit after that, and it felt very good to have her not hate me. But then again, there is still this new girl, who I am still very tempted to call a G.T. I know I shouldn’t…but have you seen her? Okay then.